Anbreen

You claim that it was me . . . . who was throwing you in the deepest wells of ignorance . . . . you stated that it was me who was making you an ignorant and an ordinary man . . . .

According to your words . . . . By being with me . . . . shadows of ignorance descended upon you

Here I would like to ask the same question to my own self that what was happening to me when I was with you . . . . what was I doing . . . . what my activities and my behavior was reflecting . . . . and I find myself with just one answer . . . . I was being ignorant . . . . but who was making me ignorant ? . . . . what factors were behind the cause of my ignorance. . . . . I don’t blame you for my ignorance . . . . I don’t blame you for making me ordinary . . . .

Because I believe that it was something else . . . . something that we overlooked . . . . which resulted in whatever happened . . . .

I know very well what I am and what I am capable of . . . .

You fail to realize that there never really was a need to prove anything to me . . . .. because from the very start I believed in you . . . . and it was my believe that kept us strong and that was making us stronger

But tsk !! you are so proud of yourself and so lost within your own self that you gave it a name of IGNORACE . . . . despite of all your intelligence you failed to realize the beauty and ended up calling it ignorance . . . .

You fail to realize that it wasn’t me who was making you ignorant . . . nor was it you who was making me ignorant . . . . it was both of us . . . . and whatever was between us . . . . was making us ignorant

Like I have just said . . . . the name you chose for IT .. . . is not the right name . . . . it was not ignorance

It was PEACE . . . . both of us have been struggling all our life with our inner self with the heart that is never satisfied .. . . a mind that is never at peace . . . .

We are unaware of the feeling of PEACE

And without our understanding we were finding peace in each other . . . satisfaction in each other’s existence

Do you know about a country that has not been to war for many years . . . . If the army of that country is not commanded by an intelligent leader the army gets use to peace . . . . and they forget what it feels like to be in a state of war . . . . They become unfamiliar with words like . . . struggle, fight & effort and resistance because they are at peace . . . . the army becomes ignorant . . .. . Ignorant of feelings like struggling and constant effort.

And that’s exactly what happened to us my dear friend . . . we found peace in eachother and became ignorant of feelings like struggling and effort .

And according to my observation . . . . bothe of us . . . we want struggle from life. . . . we don’t ever want to stop struggling.

It’s the pain that cause struggle . . . . and there was no pain between us

But its ruined, all gone

And no matter what we do and how hard we try we can never have it back

And thus the misery continues . . . .